Dear Little Miss,
This time two years ago we were eagerly waiting for you to arrive. I was trying to remain calm and patient, especially as I was convinced my due date was later than the hospital was saying. I actually didn’t dare expect that you really would arrive this week at all! But thankfully you had other ideas.
This time two years ago we didn’t yet know you were a little girl and we still weren’t sure what we would call you. Naming a baby felt like a huge responsibility so we hoped we’d know what it should be when we saw you and much to my surprise we did within minutes of your birth decide. I usually take ages to make up my mind but when the all-important moment arrived we seemed to just know – and luckily agree. Hopefully you’ll still approve of our choice when you’re older!
This time two years ago we already loved you, of course we did, but we didn’t truly appreciate just how much. We didn’t yet understand just how much our lives would change for the better once we had you safely in our arms. We hadn’t quite imagined the depth of the joy we would feel when we met you for the first time and how much we would want to protect and care for you.
This time two years ago we hadn’t quite realised just how daunting it would feel to leave the hospital with you, our tiny, delicate newborn, a new life which we would be entirely responsible for nurturing. The night after you arrived I couldn’t sleep a wink. You’d been a little bit sick a few hours after being born so I stayed awake all night watching you, just to be sure you were ok. And I did what I often do when approaching something new or unfamiliar. I decided I’d better read another book about it! So at 3am, from my hospital bed, I ordered three more baby care books from Amazon! I’d already read several but at that point it just didn’t feel enough and I so wanted to do the very best for you. I still do. And the books did come in pretty useful so it wasn’t a completely mad thing to do. I also made lots of lists during those very early days!
This time two years ago we didn’t yet know just how wonderful it would be to watch you grow and develop. How every day would bring new little things. There are the big milestones that everyone gets very excited about… first smiles, first words, first steps. But every single day we notice something different, you discover new things, learn new skills. Right now those moments are coming especially thick and fast as you become more and more independent.
This time two years ago I didn’t yet know we would get to celebrate my birthday as a new little family. You arrived two days ahead of schedule, not something you get from your usually-running-a-little-bit-late mother! Your perfect timing meant we were able to come home from hospital the night before my birthday and wake up all together on my special day. It really was a magical time.
You were, are and always will be the very best birthday present I’ve ever had. The last two years have been the best of our lives and we’re so looking forward to celebrating your special day with you later this week. X